Prairie sunset

Kidneys, Chemo and Camping

Alberta Children’s Hospital. Children’s Oncology in-patient rooms is called Q cluster. The patient rooms are situated in a square with the nursing station in the center. You can enter a patient room at the back from an outside hallway or, from the front where the nursing station is. It’s early morning and the nurses have just started their shift. A sweet brunette pokes her head in the door. She sees Nick is sleeping so in a whisper she asks how his night was. I’m sitting up in a cot near his bed. I whisper that he slept well. Nick is stirring under the covers when Dr. Anderson taps on the door. I really like this doctor. His face reflects he has a heart and treating children with cancer … [Read More...]


Spiritual Journey with Venus Art by Shannon

I went to a Spiritual Art Workshop, joining with a few friends and a couple of new peeps I hadn't met before. Lovely raven haired Shannon Breadner of VenusArt by Shannon made us comfortable on blankets on the grass. I lay down and watched white clouds drift across the sky. In a comforting, soft voice she began to lead us through a meditation. She took us on a journey, painting pictures in our minds with her words. She invited us to imagine the force of our inner selves, a turning in so to speak towards peace in a place that lives inside every one of us. A place I need to visit on a daily basis in my life that is sometimes too busy and with discontent. Shannon began by inviting us to … [Read More...]

Carlie's sunset

Shadow Horse

I’m in front of a sink full of dishes. For most of my day thoughts I’ve been mulling have sucked on my energy. I don’t like this part of me that lets stupid, useless things I can do nothing about, things I can’t fix, whirl around and around inside my head. Outside the window the sun begins its descent onto the backs of the mountains, and for a second the sight permeates the fog inside my head. I know how to stop this thought train to nowhere, but it’s become a habit and a hard one to break. It’s like when I was quitting smoking. At first, every minute I had to push away the urge to smoke. This is the same thing - I have to push away the urge to worry. My heart knows what is good for … [Read More...]

Nick & Charlene. Now I see Charlene's   expression and I see sadness. She knew  Nick’s prognosis wasn’t good.

Welcome to Alberta Children’s Hospital

The Ronald McDonald House in Calgary has rooms with private bathrooms. We didn’t see anyone as we dragged our suitcases through hallways and sitting areas. It’s clean and quiet and our room is like a small apartment, but without a kitchen. I’m sure we’ll meet people when we cook our meals. I think people are more inclined to stay in their rooms instead of mingling like we did at the House in Vancouver. I’m already missing that big, beautiful place. August 30 Alberta Children’s hospital has its oncology clinic near the main doors. Nicholas has a chest X-ray and then is admitted to Q cluster. August 31 Today Nick has a CAT scan, bone marrow biopsy, and lumbar puncture. A man wearing a … [Read More...]


Carrots or Apples Please

My horse comes when I walk into the pasture. I stroke my hand from between his eyes down his long face to the smattering of white on his nose. He sniffs at my hands and my pockets, his big leathery lips fondling my fingers, smelling, searching for the odor of a juicy orange carrot, or a sweet red apple. He’s snuffles over me, then probes the left pocket of my jacket, if he could just get his tongue inside then he’d have what he knows is in there. I slip my hand between the coat and his nose and produce the carrot. He chews with an expression of sheer bliss. The carrot has been inhaled. He drops his nose into the tray of brushes and hoof picks just in case I’ve put something in there for him … [Read More...]

Barney: Late for Lingerie and the Forgotten Place